Kaboom and all is Just Fine

Kaboom! And all is Just Fine

This week was certainly out of the ordinary for so many reasons my kids came to sleep over Anges brother and his wife are here to visit from the USA Anges mom has a party on Saturday I went for my assessment at headways which has been granted so I will be there for Mondays and Wednesdays which will take a huge load off my amazing wife’s shoulders. I ran four kilometres in preparation for the forty two kilometres in November I did manage to break the treadmill as I fell off in a moment of blankness but got straight back on in a split second once I came around and just to finish off the week I exploded at home in such a way I think I silenced the neighbours dogs for ever, the water in the pool quivered and bubbled and the lights flickered as if an evil spirit was being released from its eternal tomb. Bevan had raised new levels and now someone would listen, they had to for there were no other options given and no time to run and hide.

Exploding at home was not a good thing for I only managed to put another load on my wife’s shoulders and one day I could hurt people unintentionally as I do not know of these outbursts I have no clue when they are there they just happen and land swiftly. Saying this I have remembered what happened on this episode and this is good news for there is memory of my actions so in the future I may be able to prevent the disruptive explosion as I could learn now from this and could finally have the ability to control my actions or understand these great feelings of misbelief, to now be able to walk away before I explode or at least warn those around me of the mighty explosion about to rip whatever and whoever stands before me apart.

Ange took me for my official interview at Headways which is a therapy centre for super humans who have managed to survive major head trauma.  I will be there twice a week now for the entire day Headways has a different approach to that of my other rehab centre which is a one on one set up once my lesson is finished I go home. Now though I am involved in group therapy I get to interact with other survivors we have all sorts of programs throughout the day to keep us busy and get us strong again but mostly we can help each other heal and get strong enough to face reality on our own. I have been there twice now for group supporters meetings I have met several good people who I will share the day with I feel good about the future I feel strong to take on this venture I feel good that I will be relieving some much needed pressure from Ange by just being there. The main reason why I want this in my life is that I was able to pull myself out of the deepest darkest pit I was able to hold down the grim reaper as he tried many, many times to take me with him to his lair, I stood proud and strong before him when I was broken and weak and looked him deep into his fiery eyes and told him with a strong defiant voice that if he were to take me he will regret this all his time and I shall break him. He understood that I was indeed not finished with this part and that I did indeed have so much power left in me, he turned and walked quickly away. So for that reason I am going to give as much as I can so that I too can gain strength from life. Now at Headways I will be able to flow as a mighty river does on its way to the great ocean and so I shall be amongst people who I may be able to bring some joy or who can bring me some joy.

Each day for me has many outcomes which are not intended but having my beautiful kids over to visit their dad and leaving happy made my week great as did all this week’s adventures made possible by a great woman who hands out her love so freely was so great. I am truly blessed to have such strength around me. Thank you for all the greatness you guys do for me so for now all is just fine there is light and there is love.



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3 thoughts on “Kaboom and all is Just Fine

  1. You actually make it seem so easy with your presentation but I find this matter to be really something which I think I would never understand. It seems too complicated and extremely broad for me. I am looking forward for your next post, I will try to get the hang of it!

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